“Tonight I kinda sucked as a mom…”
Tonight I kind of sucked as a mom. I made decisions. I reacted. I OVER-reacted & then I got to OWN it. {swallow pride & ego here} I went to my kids to apologize, to ask for forgiveness, and to tell them that I was wrong.
This parenting thing is a thankless job. No matter who or what occurs, mom usually takes the blame {sorry, babe, it’s true around here }. And, part of that I’m ok with—I want my young men to respect & honor their father as the physical & spiritual leader of our family and our home.
The human part of me wants to believe that it’s not fair, but what is fair anyway?
Blame aside, I chose actions that did not honor God. I chose a tone of voice that did not honor God. I chose to be irritated and angered. And, I chose to behave that way toward these beautiful blessings that God hand-picked for me, that did not honor God.
Gulp.
I could make a compelling case for why I temporarily lost my (the moment was no more than a few minutes), but no matter the “cause,” nothing justifies my behavior. Nothing excuses or makes it an appropriate choice. Nothing.
Gulp.
Do y’all sit & marvel at how Jesus walked this earth & NEVER sinned?!? I mean, I cannot make it 5 minutes without sinning
I say this to say, I’m so incredibly IMperfect. I’m flawsome. I fall short. I miss the mark. I mess up.
Every. Single. Day.
Maybe you thought it was just you…
You’re not alone. Don’t sit in shame. Shame needs secrecy to survive, after all.
I’m loved, in spite of my behavior tonight.
I’m forgiven, In spite of my behavior tonight.
I’m still going to Heaven, in spite of my behavior tonight.
I’m still a Christian, in spite of my behavior tonight.
You see, this imperfect human who needs a Savior & cannot do it alone IS what makes me a Christian.
So, the next time you say or think, “they must not be a Christian because they ___________” remember this story, or I can share others…I’ve got plenty of examples
My heart loves Jesus & sometimes my humanness rears it’s ugly head.
Jesus, thank you for loving an imperfect, flawed, undeserving sinner like me.
Flawed. Chosen. Humbled. Blessed.
If you think you are standing strong, be careful not to fall. 1 Corinthians 10:12 NLT
Coaching tools/resources used:
reconciliation
forgiveness
space between stimulus & response
